Does anybody ever think about the fact that when Kara looks up at the stars she can still find Krypton?

She can calculate the distance in her head, thinks of space in lightyears, and still she can find Krypton in the stars unerringly. Krypton will be amongst the stars over Earth for decades after it’s destruction.

Do you ever think that Kara did the math? She knows the date of Kryptons destruction to the nanosecond. She was there, witnessing, unable to do anything. Somethings can’t be forgotten. The equation isn’t that hard, not for a girl raised in the future, not when she knows exactly how far she’s traveled. Solve for x, when x is the exact time Krypton will vanish over Earth, to the nanosecond.

She lost so much in the Phantom Zone, and this is one more thing, the two decades of time when she can still imagine her planet whole, can still see it with her own two eyes.

Do you ever think about how she thinks about time counting down in the back of her mind, how it’s running away from her?

I’ve been thinking about the long goodbye job and Sterling in it- specifically the moment when he says “does Parker even know you got Hardison killed?”

Because in retrospect that’s horror in his voice.

So Sterling asks “does Parker even know you got Hardison killed?” But he’s thinking it was always going to end this way and Nathan Ford’s fucking god complex and you could have been great you goddamn asshole.

Jim Sterling is always certain. He’s never wrong, the same way Nate is never wrong. So this is what he knows- he’s got two bodies, Nathan Ford looking guilty (and not just that lapsed choir boy guilt that is Nate’s default. This is worse.) and no word on where Sophie Devereaux is.

This is true- Nathan is predicatable, Sophie is not. But Sophie Devereaux (she of the faked deaths, legit titles, and mob connections) would abandon Nate in a heartbeat if he got his team killed.

At least 75% of Sterling’s resentment of Nathan Ford is this- you are supposed to be better than me.

So Sterling says “does Parker even know you got Hardison killed?” And Nathan Ford gets physical and he almost misses the trick. Because he can’t get past Nathan Ford willfully leading his team to their deaths. It’s been the stuff of Sterling’s nightmares the last five years, Nathan Ford and his fucking god complex, fucking up.

He doesn’t think he’ll survive it. Sterling knows Nate won’t. He’d kill himself for grief before a year was out.

(Two weeks after Sam died, Jim sat by a hospital bed and thought about praying, as the nurses fed Nate activated charcoal. It’s not the sort of thing that leaves you.)

About Me:
Blog for opensummer on ao3. She/they. I'm ace, pan, and prefer queer as a universal descriptor. Well over 18. Moved from openemptysummer on tumblr to dreamwidth with the latest purge news. It's nice to go back to my lj roots, though I will absolutely miss the tag novel. I like squeeing about all sorts of things and writing.

I'm team cockroach, actually ADHD, lowkey autistic, highkey le tired, and young enough to still want to do something about it. I've been lurking on the edges of fandom for a decade now and that's the way I like it. 

If I'm online, I usually have discord running in the background. You're more than welcome to stop by and say hello.

My Fandoms Include:
Agents of SHIELD, Avatar the Last Airbender, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Castlevania, DC comics, Dragon Age, Harry Potter, Hilda, Hunger Games, Killjoys, MCU, Marvel comics, Mass Effect, Miraculous Ladybug, Pacific Rim, She-ra, Supergirl, SyFy Alice, The 100, The Expanse, The Librarians, The Vampire Diaries, Wonder Woman, Zombies, Run!, and many more.

I'm currently writing mostly for Supergirl, Castlevania, and Agents of SHIELD.

My Master Fic List is here and still under construction.

"Sometimes it's better to light a flamethrower, than curse the darkness."
GNU Terry Pratchett