Weekly Roundup: Week 1

[opensummer]

One of my goals for this year is to post a weekly roundup to keep an eye on my mental health, encourage myself to write at least a little every week, and keep a record of what I'm up to. This is the first of them, hopefully published every sunday from here on out. 

What I’m doing: In Mexico, working on my S&R certification, so I can progress to a DM. 
What I’m reading: Laurie Penny's column on longreads about sexuality, feminism, and the #metoo movement. They're fantastic reading and I've been devouring them. Start with The Consent of the (Un)governed if you check them out, and work from there.
What I’m listening to: Jay and Miles X-plain the X-Men. I let my queue build up so I’ve got the last 4 episodes to get through.  Thankfully I’ve got a fair amount of time on the boat everyday and I find listening to them very grounding. 
What I’m watching: The trailer for the kid who would be king on repeat. It’s written and directed by Joe Cornish who directed Attack the Block, which might be my favorite movie of all time. Also I finally got around to watching Annihilation and it's fantastic- the best possible adaptation of the book.
What I’m writing:

• history’s longest suicide note, now written out to chapter 5, 10k of ??
• road song: An AU of AoS season 2 where Skye refuses both the inhumans and shields help and goes on a run. Themed around Richard Siken's Driving, Not Washing. 2.5k out of roughly 10k 
• no colors anymore: coda to I see the girls dressed by in their summer clothes. Where we get to see Lex's perspective on Kara's kidnapping. .8k out of 2k. 
• an untitled atla/star wars fusion fic where Rey is the avatar and Kylo Ren is not the Zuko friend. 1.4k out of 2k?

Mental Health Check: 5/10. Feeling a little isolated, despite my best efforts. Had a bad moment where I outed myself as a level 9,000 nerd wizard and just watched the entire group shut down. But I'm still up on all my messages and I called my sister this week which is good. Also Brooklyn 99 comes back this week which is gonna be really good for me.
Final Notes: my inner monologue has been pretty heavy on the why can’t you be just a little less autistic and that’s not fair or kind to myself. This year I’m trying to be both those things.

Comments

[sperrywink]

Ooohh, a mental health check every week is such a good idea! I might borrow it. I tend to fluctuate, so having some idea of the pattern would be helpful.

And yes, definitely be kinder and fairer to yourself. You seem like a delightful person.

[opensummer]

Its a trick my last therapist taught me, and I've fallen out of the habit. I'm hoping that doing it "publicly" will help keep me accountable. It makes it a lot easy to see patterns, and sometimes just thinking about it helps improve my mental health!



Me flapping my feelings right now! Thank you!